December 12, 2008

14 Weeks

I still miss them.

I can't believe that it has been that long since I last "held" Cream and Wheat.

I feel like I just blinked the last 14 weeks away.

I have been reading my milestone/keepsake book from Turtle's pregnancy everyday. I would have just entered my second trimester.

Instead Wednesday night I had to take a pregnancy test......

Thanks to Clark for getting it, and getting grilled by the county busy body who checked him out, she wants to know how the test turns out!! Ha!!

Yesterday I got to enjoy a call from the Clinic's newest nurse... GigglingIdiot.. She drives me NUTS!!! She actually asked if I was sure the HPT was negative.... Ok retard, do you think I would have called for my calender and to start the BCP's if it had been the slightest hint of a line???

So yeah I got my calender, and started downing the lovely birth control yesterday. Further proof that I am not 14 weeks pregnant.

Shit that really hurts.

Of course it will be the Turtle's 1st birthday in 6 weeks.

Wow, only 6 more weeks and my baby won't be a baby anymore.

Her first Christmas is right around the corner. How did it happen?? I was just posing in my Santa gear with my baby belly. Oh how I miss that day. I want to hold her safe like that again. All to myself. Now I have to share her. :o*(


BCP's- 12-11-08
Lupr*n- 12-28-08
Last BCP- 12-31-08
Start Stims- 1-08-09

So ladies and gentlemen it is back on..... here we go again!!


Kristin said...

Good luck Rebel. I hope this next year gets off to the best start possible.

Hopeful Mother said...

Good luck!

And WOW - almost 1 year.

Rhonda said...

Good luck!

momofonefornow said...

I miss Cream & Wheat too. I suppose that sounds stupid but they were your embies and had they stuck, you would be in happy land right now. Does that make sense? I miss them for you, for all of the possibilities they represented for you. Sigh...

I am hoping for better things doe you in 2009.

Soxy Deb said...

I cant be right there with you, but I'm right here with you. Every step.


Lost in Space said...

I'm glad to read I'm not the only one who considers my IVF cycles as losses. They were real and our 8 transferred embies are the closest we have ever (and may ever) come to creating something that is part of both of us. It is not just another failed cycle. Many hugs.

Yeah for a new plan, a new cycle, and a 1st birthday celebration just around the corner!

Susan said...

Here's hoping for a terrific start of the new year and a very sticky uterus. Praying for you...

deanna said...

Thinking of you, and wishing you luck anew on this next cycle. May 2009 may lovely for you.

(And, some almost-birthday big-girl wishes to Turtle!)

Just Me. said...

Here with you every step of the way, Rebel.