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So, the IVF Nurse called me this am, and out of the 20 eggs that they got, 15 were mature.... well, this is where I got screwed... not one single one of my eggs fertilized. See I know those ovaries were gonna screw me!! I got them to give up the booty, so they gave up the shittiest bunch of eggs they had!! They called me at 10:10, so I had a feeling that something wasn't right, you know they get the good news calls out of the way first thing in the morning!! She told me that she was gonna talk to Dr. B and call me back with what to do next, well, just a few minutes later she called and asked me if I wanted them to attempt "Rescue ICSI". I guess the odds are not good at all because the eggs have been out for 24 hours, but I told her what the hell, give it a shot. Can't hurt at this point. She told me all the docs were stunned that everything looked so good and then for this to happen. I simply told her that I wasn't surprised because I have been waiting for the other shoe to drop anyway. So, I G**gle the hell out of Rescue ICSI only to find that the odds are slim to none that it will work at all. So once again, my Ovaries have found a way to bring me to my knees. Clark was beside himself when I called him, thinking that it had been that his sample was bad, or the meds that he is on prevented it, but I know it is me, and I knew something was gonna happen....
I am still waiting for the nurse to call me back, and it may not be until tomorrow, but I am going to go crawl into my bed an have a pity party before Kent comes home and I have to put on a happy face!!! I HATE IF!!!!
Well, I have to admit I wasn't prepared for feeling like I got the hell beaten out of me by a prize fighter!!! I feel like someone has been sticking needles in my Vagina... oh, that's right they did!!!! Omg, I am so freaking bloated and uncomfortable tonight that I could scream!!! However all in all I did very well, and I gave them... a self fulfilled prophecy of 20 eggs!!! Yep, those Ovaries finally came through for me... So I am going to take my tenderized and swollen ovaries and go crawl back into bed with some good DRUGS!! Thanks for all the comments and well wishes!!!
I just want to let everyone who reads my blog and comments, that I appreciate it more then words can convey!! It means so much to me to have people out there rooting for me, and cheering me on!!! I love to read the other blogs esp. DD, Kris, and Kristen.... There is so much inspiration out there for women dealing with IF, and I am just glad that I have a few of you on my side during this journey!!! Thanks so much for letting me know that you are there, and that you care!!!! Hugs and Love to all of you!!!!
for my retrieval. When I went in yesterday, my lining was at 11, and some of the follies on the right had hit 25-23. The left seems to have more that are staying smaller, but Dr. B said those ovaries can only stretch so much... Yeah I know!!! They were actually touching yesterday, and she hardly had to move the Wand at all to shift from right to left. So needless to say I am so swollen and uncomfortable it isn't funny!!! I have to pee every five minutes, and am constipated like somebody stuck a cork in my Arse!!! I had to stay up late last night as I couldn't trigger until 11 pm, so I slept in late this AM.
Clark actually went with me yesterday, and it was a nightmare!!! Now I know why I am glad that he stayed home the rest of the week!!! I had to register at the hospital where I will actually have the Ret. done, and then we went to the pharmacy, only to be told that I wasn't gonna be able to fill my script for pain meds because the doc that wrote it messed up the info.... So after 2 hours of WAITING for the doc to call back and get it straight, I finally got to head home. I have to say that I haven't been to hormonal until the last 2 days, and last night a movie that I have seen 20 times sent me into a crying Jag!!! UGH
Today has been just a lazy day, we watched the football games today, and the Patriots and Colts are playing right now!!
I am gonna go and hit the shower and shave so that I don't head to the hospital looking like a Sasquatch in the morning!!! If I can bend over far enough to see my legs that is!!! I am so glad this day is almost here!!!!!! I will let you all know what we end up with in the morning... PRAYING and HOPING for 20 or so, but will be happy to just get to transfer with 2 healthy ones!!
Well, traffic was a little better this morning, and I have solved the "secret" of the RE's office... apparently they don't start counting the follies until they get to a certain size. So..... I have 6 19's, 6 18's and 3-4 17's on the right ovary, and 6 17's 5 16's, and then 9 15's on the left ovary!! Lining was at a 9, and I am thinking that might be a little to low... it was a 5 on Monday, but I have no freaking clue what they like to see it at. I actually got to see my RE today, and she said she was very proud of me and my ovaries, and she expects to get lots of eggs on MONDAY!!! That's right Internets my retrieval is set for Monday based on the sizes of the dominant follies. So, I will be going back tomorrow for one last follie and lining check and I will most likely be triggering tomorrow night. I am excited and scared to death all in the same breath!! This is it!! I have been miserable yes, but I can finally see the end in sight, and I am so relieved!! I have found a few women that have been going the same days that I have who want to actually talk to me!! LOL It has been nice to talk to them, and one is even having a surrogate carry for her, I thought that was amazing!! I am praying that she will gets lots of eggs, and that her surrogate will get PG and carry to term!! I just can't believe that this part is almost over already, it seems like yesterday I started this cycle, and it is almost at the end!! I have to see what tomorrow brings, but I am sure that with the sizes we will be a go for Monday!! I have to get a nap in before I go get Kent from school, so I will let everyone know what happens in the AM.
