Somehow I missed that Sunday was March 1st and February is gone. Time seems to be speeding up no matter how I try to keep it at a slow and steady pace.
Poor Turtle is still not back to herself just yet. I have been having to get up at least twice a night to comfort her. She started really, really walking this past Friday, so I think she wants to get up in the middle of the night and walk around, irregardless of how tired mommy is!! She has also been very needy and demanding... welcome to toddler hood!!
Kent didn't do well while we were gone, and has lost privilege's because of it, not to mention that his attitude has been very shitty the last week. We found out that he lied about some very serious things that could have gotten us into trouble, and when we confronted him about them, he told me "Oh well, guess you won't piss me off again huh??" So, I am trying to get him back into therapy... not that I think it will really help, but at this point I have no options.
Clark and I actually had a good time while we were away, despite the reason we were out of town. We spent a lot of time talking, and enjoying each other again. We discussed the Last Cycle, and I told him that I wanted to wait a month, so when we got home I emailed Dr. OvaryWhisperer and told her that I had taken my last BCP on Sunday, and what did she want me to do. She advised that I could start the next pack, and that she would let the nurse know. Yesterday the Nurse called me with our schedule, and I will take my last BCP on the 22nd, and start stims on the 26th of this month. I know that doesn't seem like a month, and really it isn't a full month, but with this new protocol things move A LOT faster. I didn't fully understand how fast either, and thought I had until April before we started, but I talked to Clark, and he was fine with it. My biggest concern was all the antibiotics that I have been on the last few weeks because of the ear/sinus issues, so I wanted to get some time between them and all the meds to come. Aside from all the other vitamins I am taking I added Co Q-10, and DHEA to the mix hoping to give the eggs and ute a boost. Hell at this point I would take just about anything to give this cycle a shot.
Now for my address to Anonymous: I cannot imagine that you thought you wouldn't get attacked by either me or my commenter's when you posted your response. While I am not angry at you, as I said before I feel sorrow for you actually, I will not disagree with any of the people who addressed you. While your comments weren't on the vile side, they really were hurtful in the sense that you implied that my children would not be good enough for you because of MY Mental Illness. I know that not all Bi-Polar people are easy to treat, and some are downright resistant to treatment period, I however am not one of those people. I took pains to take a lot of supplements especially for fetal brain development before and after I conceived Turtle, and every cycle since. I did everything I could in my power to make sure that any child I gave birth to, had less of a chance of being Bi-Polar. Nothing says that Turtle will or won't have problems, like I stated that is not up to me, or you, but I will not love her any less if she does have any Mental or other illness. I feel that I am actually more so prepared for what may come then a mother who isn't used to dealing with a mental illness, because I walk that line everyday. I know what to look for, and how to help if the need should so arise. So, in finishing, I am sorry if you feel that you were vilified, but I don't think that with the nature of your comments, and the hiding behind Anonymous to make those comments, that you really thought through all of the ways that you could hurt with what you said. Does that make sense or am I way off base here??
It is late, I am tired, and my brain hurts from cleaning all day... LOL I know that sounds goofy, but I swear I cannot get housework done unless I have a chore chart anymore, and since I have yet to make one up, keeping everything in my mind that needs to be done just makes me run around looking like a chicken with it's head cut off.... :o)
Separation Devistation, Middle of Nowhere, Colorado, United States
I am Erica (Rebel) soon to be ex-wife to Keith. I am mom to an amazing little girl named Lauryn (Turtle), and a sweet son named Cody. Keith and I were married for 20 years. After 14 & 1/2 years of trying our 2nd attmept at IVF/ICSI was succesful, and gave us our Lauryn. After living what I though was the life I wanted all along, my world came crashing down December 29th of 2012. I am now separated from Keith, he has custody of Lauryn, and I am alone and trying to find my way back to myself.