Crap......

Well, I had to take a day to absorb my OB appointment before I could update.

I was just scheduled to see the Midwife. Got there right on time, went back,

Weight- 145
Fasting Glucose- 73
B/P- 100/60
Turtles HR- 150's

So, I tell the midwife that I had been cramping a little, and had a little bit of spotting in the AM yesterday. Then I told her that that pain on the left side was still there. Well, about then she started getting worried and said that they were going to do an U/S just to check on the pain to see just what it was. So off I got to the U/S room, get jelled up, see the Turtle, and the tech looked over to the left side, asked me if I had had Endo before I got pregnant, and I told her that yes I had.... She told me that this was going to hurt but that she had to do it... so she pressed really hard on the left side and goes "Hmm" I asked her what, and she said well your left ovary is totally adhered to the side of your uterus!!! Great!!! Doesn't that just freaking figure??!! So she looked over the Turtle again, and did a bunch of measurements told me baby is right on track. I thought that I saw something funny when she was looking, and asked her why it looked like there was a bulge, but she told me it was just the sac. So I get cleaned up, and back to the midwifes office, only to have her come in 2 minutes later and tell me that she HAS to take me to see the doc... Yeah guess who??? Right Dr. ManHands!!! Well less then a minute later in walks Dr. ManHands with a very odd look on her face.... you know the one that they give you when they have PITY written all over their faces?? She sits down and tells me that she has some bad news. There is a 7 cm blood clot in my uterus, and that it is pushing up on Turtle, and there may be some blood flow issues, but that right now there is nothing they can do but wait and see what happens. The clot is probably the result of the placenta partially abrupting, but they aren't sure. I am on complete bed rest now, and will be having visits every 2 weeks from here on out. I have a doppler so she told me to check the Turtle in the morning and then again at night, and if there is any change in the HR or not one at all then I am to call right away. I am also to call if I have ANY more bleeding period.

I spent most of today just crying and trying to process all this in my head as best as I could, but I still want to beat the hell out of "Hope". I am just going to have to take this day by day, and pray that everything works out. I only have 8 more weeks til 24 weeks, which is my goal for Turtle... Viability, and anything after that is golden, but I am not sure how this is going to pan out to be totally honest with you. I will post in a few more days after I get my thoughts together a little more.